May 15th, 2017

Today brings so many emotions to my heart that I can’t explain… A year ago today I was laying in a hospital bed, Floor 12 at Medical City of Dallas finding out my cancer had worsened. What that meant, I wasn’t quite sure at the time I just knew things were not good. Within the day it was decided that I was going to need to start intense chemo to treat what was now considered AML. After a couple of rounds I would then need a bone marrow transplant… Although that was one of the most terrifying days of my life, I knew I had amazing friends and family to support me the whole way through. Ready or not, I was ready to fight what was ahead.

As many of you know, a lot of things in my life were put on hold. School was one of the most important things that I had to set aside for a little, but I was determined to get back to it as soon I was able to. Last week I finished my first class back as a student and it was one of the best feelings ever. I had taken Strategic Management online through the U of A, and finished with a passing grade. Although it was not easy, I did the best I could and it all payed off! I’m on to my next!

Right now I’m laying in my bed, with my furry children… in Fayetteville!! That’s right Fayetteville. Tomorrow I start my first class back IN CLASS at the U of A! With all of the obstacles I went through this past year, I felt like this day would never come. Although I’m extremely nervous, I’m so excited to take this huge step into becoming the “Me” I’ve been working so hard towards this past year.

With all that being said, the reason I am able to be where I am today is because of my friends and family. Most importantly my parents.. All they do for me every single day is the biggest blessing..

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My parents and I, a year ago today

Today is Mother’s Day… My mother is my hero. She gave me life over 22 years ago and last year she was the reason I was given another chance at life. No, a year ago today, I did not have any idea my mom would be my transplant donor nor did anyone else but I thank God everyday that he chose my mother to be that person for me. I’m thankful for the bond that we have built and for every part of me that is her. I’m thankful for every single second she has spent taking care of me and loving me unconditionally! Thanks for everything Mama, happy Mother’s Day!

To celebrate this semester of hard work, this past weekend I spent with my good friend Grace. It was a great way to end the semester before my next started! From the Rangers game to the Rascal Flatts concert, every second was a blast! So thankful for good friends:)

In my last post I had so many people message me about sleeping tips and recommendations… thank you all so much, I think I tried almost every single thing y’all mentioned! I have had a lot more luck with sleep which I’m extremely thankful for. I still have my nights, but improvement is all I’m looking for. Also, my joint pain is still a mystery.. I am doing better with controlling the pain, and just pray things keep going the right way. They are doing muscle enzyme test on me, results won’t come back for a while!

Well that’s about it I think… Today is just a great day, and so is all of the rest. I’m just so thankful for where I’m at today, I had to share! God is truly amazing and has filled my life with the greatest blessings. Thank you for the continued thoughts and prayers, always!

-Xo Kara

“Where Flowers Bloom, So Does Hope”

Hope is something that is found during struggles that directs us to the light. You know, struggling is ok. Lately, Ive been struggling a lot with joint pain.  Some days it is very severe, some days it’s manageable.. but when you only get maybe 2-3 hours of sleep at night and have finals to study for, it makes things a bit more difficult. No, it doesn’t stop me from doing my day to day stuff..(dog walking and puppy sitting at the moment lol). I try my best to push myself to live the life I want to be living with or without all of the post transplant obstacles I’m dealing with. I’d like to say I’m doing a pretty good job, but would love to do better (always). I’m finally learning when to stop, so I don’t overdo it all the time…. (learning the hard way like always. Because yes, I’m stubborn).

The doctors aren’t sure what is causing the pain yet, so right now they are just trying to get the pain under control. A muscle biopsy would be needed to determine exactly what’s going on but apparently they are extremely painful so I’m goin to hold off on that option until it ends up being the last resort… you will be hearing about it though, I promise!!! So right now strangely enough, anxiety medicine and Ibprofan (which I’m not suppose to take but they are allowing me to once a day) is whats helping keep my joint pain under-control.. They are thinking that eventually it will just slowly go away, so we will see. Oh and this dang sleeping problem, is still a problem. Like a really big one… SO IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO LEAVE A COMMENT ON ANY AND EVERY SLEEPING TIP YOU HAVE, I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IT (tia). I feel like I’ve tried them all, but I know there’s more out there somewhere and I would love to hear what works for you! Can’t wait to see what all of you have to say… 🙂

May 15th I start class IN Fayetteville at the U of A for 2 weeks… WAHOOO! Just the beginning of my #comeback 😉 This will be the longest I’ve been away from my parents since my transplant and that just makes my stomach twist and turn…. I know I will be okay, and they are only a few hours away if I need them. I just hate that I’ve been having so many rough days lately… praying things lighten up quick!  Also, I hopefully will have my furry kids with me.. that should help big time!  I’m not lying, dogs know when something is up and can be the best nurses (if they are in the mood). Even with all that being said, I will admit I truly am very excited to start class again. It finally feels like I’m on the road to being ME again and that’s what I’ve been waiting for since last May! Cheers to that! 

So many other fun things will be going on the next few months and I can’t wait to share! 

-XO Kara